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Another Hiatus

MOTH has been recovering from a work accident for the last 18 months and money has been tight to say the least.  So to save what we have worked so hard for we have rented out our house and are travelling around for a while.  Luckily I have a great boss who allows me to work remotely and has even paid for our internet

First stop Mt Tamborine Caravan and Camping.

   We had a great time  at the Tamborine Markets, the Glow Worm Caves and Aden just loved the pony rides.  We ended up staying for 3 weeks.  Great little caravan park, camp fires are allowed which was great because it was freezing!

Our only mishap was that Aden decided to be helpful around the fire and a trip to the emergency room ensued.

However in the true nature of boys, Aden raced out afterwards saying “nobody else has one of these!”  Boys!





Missing in Action

It’s been some time since I last posted but I have been going through some health stuff.

I was recently admitted to hospital for an emergency Gall Bladder removal, there is a technical name for it but essentially this is what was done.  I spent 12 days in hospital due to complications and when they finally let me out I now have to live with Acute Pancreatitis.

What does that mean?  Initially I was freaking out because everything I could find on the net was really extreme, lots of raw veg and no alcohol.  The prospect of living the rest of my life as a teetotal vegan wasn’t very appealing!  Don’t get me wrong I love veges but no meat, chicken or fish and never to have another glass of wine, well sorry but life just didn’t seem worth it!

Apart from that, the Doctor told me and I quote “You came as close to death and you would ever want to get”!  And funny, every time I say that in my head I get that song “Lover you don’t treat me no good no more” going round and round, not relevant I know but there’s a line that goes, “she looks as lovely as shes ever gonna get” .

Humour aside, I feel a great deal of guilt, my GP sent me for an ultrasound about 12 months ago and I never got around to it.  I probably would have needed to have my GB removed but not as dramatically.  I’ve had 12 days to think about my mortality and now find myself going through a crisis.

What if I had died, nothing was prepared, no will nothing.  I would have been leaving my  hubby, daughter and son a whole heap of hassles.  My four year old son would grow up without and mummy, my grown daughter would have to make her way by herself and hubby, well I don’t even want to go there!

Bright side:  I now have a second chance… What will I do about it?  What do I want to do about it?

First on the agenda, do my will!  Second change my diet, see a dietitian, I just don’t believe my food choices could be this bleak.  My GP said low fat, I can deal with that but nothing about alcohol.

Alcohol:  is it really such a big deal?  No not on a day to day basis but when most of your socialising revolves around food, bbqs and having a drinkypoo with friends, it can be difficult!  I’ve managed to get past most of my triggers, a glass of wine while cooking etc but do I really want to go to a bbq with friends and not drink?  Most people initially think this is no problem but try being in the room where everyone is drinking and you’re not, you never get the same vibe as them and end up feeling left out, I’d rather not go.  Yes this is mindset but not one I will be able to get over easily. Can I have an occasional wine and not end up in hospital?

Lastly I am not happy in my life I have been drifting for the most part for a long time. Working to pay the mortgage and bills, nothing left for anything else.  This is going to change as well.  For the last 12 months I have been on a backyard farming experiment and I love it.  So we will be looking to sell up and get some land, live simply and mortgage free (if possible).

I hope you don’t mind the lack of pictures but I didn’t think you would like to see my innards :-) Yes my doc took pics!




The Weekend Homesteader

So I’m really excited. I have just finished reading everything Anna Hess has ever written.

For those who don’t know Anna, she and her husband Mark are Homesteading on a 58 acre property in Virginia and she released a series for Weekend Homesteaders……  Me!

It is a monthly series with projects for each weekend of the month and though it is set in the Northern Hemisphere it’s pretty easy to translate it here in Oz.  The series begins in May ie November here so I have a couple of months before I can start my garden but the other books have projects I can do now such making bread and a rainwater tank for the garden.

I know it sounds obvious – making bread.  I mean you don’t need a book to tell you how to do that, just google it but Anna’s series of projects has the ability to get procrastinators like me off their proverbial and get into it.

I feel like I can do something now towards our dream of being self-sufficient while we’re waiting for the property market to improve.  Yay!

If you’d like to learn more about Anna and her way of life you can find them here at Walden Effect and the Weekend Homesteader  books at Amazon.

I guess you just need something to click!

Just Call me a Financial Acrobat!

Ever felt like a Financial Acrobat?

I know most mum’s would, always robbing Peter to pay Paul.  There never seems to be enough cash to go around.

This morning at 4.30am I am looking at our budget, wondering how the hell I was going to pay for all this.  You see the MOTH needed to go to a funeral about 5 hours away from home.  So of course he gets a speeding ticket and a unroadworthy vehicle fine for a cracked muffler.  There goes the budget!

I sometimes think our partners have no idea on what things cost.  I am appalled by his lack of consideration, a speeding fine!  We all know not to speed and I think this so rude, but I only have myself to blame.  You see years ago when we were deciding on who was responsible for what, I got saddled with the finances.  Little did I know what was in store.

ME:  worry, going without, arguments.

MOTH:  deniability, blame game, evergreen attitude.

Several times over the years I have tried to give this responsibility to him or at least make joint decisions but with no luck.  You see I’ve let him believe that I can always find the money for these unexpected expenses and he thinks I’m a financial genius, flattering yes, but I’m sure he just doesn’t want the responsibility, why would you?

My advice to all is don’t take it all on yourself, make sure that it is shared and joint decisions are made about the family finances.


Going Home

Opah 11/7/1935 – 2/7/2012

Went home on the weekend.  Not really for the best of reasons…. a family friend died.  He was just worn out.  A lovely man and a lovely family.  The funeral simple just family and friends farewelling the life of a simple man who gave everything he had and lived a full and happy life.

We should all aspire to this.

While home I had the chance to catch with friends and family and I realised just how unhappy I am where I am.  So now the plan is to move from the Gold Coast somewhere closer to home.  Actually it’s not even a plan yet.  But now that I’ve made the decision of what I don’t want anymore I can move on with want I want.

Just take a look at this video of someone living off the grid in Canada.  Now I’m not saying this is for me but how awesome is it and what a lot of great ideas there.  Some I can take on board and some I won’t.


So many possibilities for living your life.  Just need to know…. How do I get there??


Feeling a Little Disheartened

So once again I’m sitting in my office wondering what the hell I’m doing here.  Was this where I wanted to be at the ripe old age of 40.  Shouldn’t I have the control now and not be jumping to the commands of diva bosses and self-important workmates.

Do you know what it’s like to achieve what you set out to do only to find that it’s no longer what you want.  And now you have a new dream and can’t get started because you’re tied to your old dream.

My new dream is to buy a piece of land and become self-sufficient.  I don’t want to be working for others anymore.  I’d like to be able to watch my son grow up and not let others do it for me, I’ve already missed out on too much!

How great would it be to own some land by a small running creek.  Build a self-sufficient house, like a Cob House for instance.

Some chooks, vege garden, underground water tanks and a massive solar power system.

This all takes money and time.  Money I don’t have because the property market is crap and our house wouldn’t cover the debt at present and time I don’t have cause I’m stuck at this desk!

Can I wait the two years the experts are saying that it will take the property market will recover……  this is the question!


For the Hundredth Time!

The inspiration for this blog doesn’t come from doing things over and over although this is probably the hundredth blog I’ve set up on my journey to conquering internet marketing.  It was inspired by Albert Einstein!

“I think and think for months and years. Ninety-nine times, the conclusion is false. The hundredth time I am right.”

This quote describes me to a tee!  I think and think and mostly things don’t turn out the way I want but I always believe that something can be learned from my failures and in the end I will achieve my dream of financial freedom.

I have been learning about internet marketing for about five years now and I always seem to get there and then everything changes.  I suffer from Shiny Object Syndrome as well.  No more!

This blog is about putting into action the things I have learned.  I found it difficult to apply these skills because I believed that I had nothing to say.  Until I started reading other peoples blogs and became engrossed in their lives.  Maybe somewhere someone will be interested in my journey and will be inspired to change their life as well.

The catalyst for me?  It was reading Our Sonny Life.  A truly inspirational family.  You can read about Trek here.  Be warned it is a story that is inspiring but it doesn’t have a happy ending.  But it made me think about my life and where I want it to go.

I promise to share what I have learned, the good, the bad, the mistakes and the triumphs.  Stay tuned.


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